Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Faith like a child...

My friend Amy is in a battle that no parent should have to face: her ten month old daughter was diagnosed with a neuroblastoma on her spinal column. I'll never forget the day we spent with her at the hospital while Hailey had her biopsy. We hugged her, we prayed with her, and we surely cried with her. I have the gift of mercy, and it was easy for me to put myself in her shoes, especially with the issues JoJo is going through.

We were talking on the phone the other day because I was trying to mentally prepare for what we might be told tomorrow. Amy & Bob were completely blindsided with the diagnosis. At least I know what the possibilities are. And I wanted to be prepared. So we talked about how scary the unknown is, and how horrible the agonizing wait is while you wait to hear from the doctors. She talked about how when Hailey was going through her 2nd round of chemo, she was waiting, as happy as can be. She looked up at Amy with a HUGE grin on her face. She knew that she was with her mom, and that she could trust her mom. She told me she wished she could be like that with God. To look up at God and trust Him completely, with a HUGE smile on her face.

To have faith like a child. A child doesn't look at the circumstances, he looks for what he knows to be true. For example, we learned during the Truth Project, that a child walks to the end of the diving board. Everything in his mind tells him NOT to jump into the water that is much deeper than he is tall, that he won't be able to breath under the water, that he will no longer be in control once he makes that move to step off the board. But then he sees his mom at the end of the board, waiting with her arms open, ready to catch him. To rescue him if the water overcomes him. He knows this because he knows that his mom won't let him be hurt under her watch.

So I know the word of God promises me many things.
-"All of my days were written in your book before one of them came to be." Ps. 139:16
-"The Lord your God will be with you, wherever you shall go" Joshua 1:9
-"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

Here's the scripture my dad shared with us:
Psalm 91

"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most Highwill rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” Surely he will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked. If you make the Most High your dwelling—even the Lord, who is my refuge— then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent. For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent. “Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation.”

So my goal for the day: To go to the end of the diving board, and despite the water being much deeper that I am tall, to look to my Daddy, and jump in, trusting He will be there to rescue me!


Ken said...

He is waiting, you can rest assured.
Love you all forever.

Julie Loft said...

This is so inspiring and spirit-led. Prayers for you and Kenney. Just rest in God's arms, and "Be still".

mommynts said...

Praying for JoJo and your whole family, and we also pray for Hailey, every night!
Hope you get some good answers, and the doctors can work some stuff out (with God's help of course)!